Poetic block

I am Hear Her Voice with no instrumental just vocal vibrations of the gutter, the trenches, plantations of past generations, parole, probation this is Nairobi raw uncut no faking.

Just baffling head on collisions with destiny and provision.

Trying to control the outcome of my decisions is like a whirlwind.

Balancing the temple from beginning to end.

I’m on 10

Authentic

I won’t shake,

I won’t move,

I won’t bend

until mass incarceration ends and there’s an alternative to putting juveniles in the pen.

Go in as babies come out as old women and men.

I’m a little shy in front of people so my voice is like intermissions it breaks.

But my words speak to you like an earthquake.

Make you do a double take and give you something to contemplate.

Created a home for the women Hear Her Voice is OUR PLACE.

From home we Never stray.

We still represent and stand Strong.

We move in unity; straight progress our movement don’t stop it moves on.

And Business we stand On! 

Nairobi X

see It wasn’t that man’s rib that made us strong, it was the breath that God blew into our lungs. 

So, like David we write our own psalms. 

Only a woman can stand this strong.  As we bare witness while the police killing our sons.

From dusk till dawn, we stand up fight and never run. 

I know some of y’all don’t understand my dialect and can’t appreciate my intellect.

 I mean no disrespect.

I didn’t come here to protest a battle between sexes. 

I’m just pondering when did women become the provider & protector?

When did our roles intertwine & become one? 

We carry, labor and raise him, but only a man can teach his son to become one. 

So many women doing manly jobs. 

That’s why when men approach us, we come off so hard. 

Our scars hold more than 16 bars. 

The more estrogen the more heart. 

Like Rosa Parks we move the movement, 

and every time our strength is tested, we prove it.

We adapt and overcome, every obstacle & every situation.

Like a lioness we’re never extinct, and ain’t no replacing us. 

God placed his greatness in us!

That’s why every living human being comes from within us 

THE WO-MAN.

Nairobi X

There’s a hole in my heart that desires freedom
See I come from a background of addiction, trauma, pain, criminality, and loneliness.
So, there’s this hole where freedom should be.
My heart desires the type of freedom that comes with comfort. Lord knows my struggles paid in full for such a purchase.  Yet I’m still indebted unable to pay the taxation afflicted, at times unable to pursue proper concentration. 

My heart desires a love I once knew. The kind of love that kept me embraced like my mother’s womb. Profound prolific and real. Supportive without limits or conditions.

” Hearts of fire” earth wind and fire status. Tryna become what I know I could be. But there’s freedom still my heart seeks.

There’s love, trust, emotional strength and mental stability I need.
Running from the demons of addiction that pursue me. Running from the ties of authorities over my life.

There’s freedom in my heart I need. From day to day, nights and weeks I’m empty. As if my soul is on a journey that only I can see because this freedom keeps evading me.
I chase but begin to wonder if I’ll ever be free.

Self-medication used to be the way. Until I learned I still lose anyway. Trapped inside the confines of a diseased mind. Trapped inside of self-inflicted wall I can’t climb. Clinging to a hope that’s blind.        

So, my heart desires a freedom I can’t see. A freedom I desperately need.
There’s a hole in my heart where freedom should be & It’s black as the deepest sea.

I mean the freedom just to be free. Like Nat, Harriet, and many others tried to seek. And still, I feel alone cause where this freedom should be, the hole continuously gets bigger consuming me. And I’m afraid there’ll be nothing left of me if I can’t fill this hole where freedom should be.

Aquile

To me you’re my destiny and my fate

the very food that’s on my plate

the love that’s in my hate

the Sun that shines upon my face

the hope that brings me back to Faith

to me you’re the one that inspires me

I trust that you would never lie to me

you’re my sanity in the wicked place

my shelter when I need to feel safe

the very definition of my grace

to me you’re the wires that grounds me

the amp that moves my bass

the speaker’s that’s in place

the very reason that I was created

to me you’re my respirator /my defibrillator/ my rescuer better-late-than-never /

my endeavors /my commitment to forever/ in every way you make me better

to me your worth all my sacrifices/you’re the calm in my crisis/ my certainty when I’m indecisive

you’re the breath I feel when I’m lifeless

to me you’re the sweet dreams when I sleep

the ground beneath my feet

the oxygen that I breathe

the Conqueror of my defeat

To me you’re my soulmate the other 1/2 of me.

Nairobi X

 I know for sure that your God’s masterpiece,

Cuz after he fashioned Adam, he surpassed his own mastery the moment that he crafted eve.

And after eve every woman since has been half a queen,

beautiful beyond comprehension so her other half’s a dream.

How could I breathe without your essence? • How could I be without you bringing out the best in me by just being in my presence.

I am incomplete without you present,

You ae my rib so without you my heart is unprotected.

How can a King be a king without a queen next to him?

How can the moon shine without the sun reflecting it?

I look to the sky and see it alive with your testament,

Cuz every star is a woman that shows us all what perfection is.

In you I glimpse God’s magnificence,

A sliver of his brilliance that reveals his omnipotence.

Every stroke of his brush masterful in its sentiment

To bring about perfection manifested in the feminine.

I’m swimming in the infinite when I behold your feminine form,

Cuz God gives the world a miracle every time a woman is born.

Power and grace summoned in greatness and boldly adorned,

Shine from the face of every angel his greatness has spawned.

I’m in awe of you and mesmerized by all that you are,

I fall harder and harder in love with you every time that you open your heart.

I give you my all, for all of time I’m totally yours, Cuz a man without a woman is hopelessly lost.

Devel

Single Mom Still
Here we are
At home
But not at home, But not alone,
My gift still brings me joy.
A star in my darkest moment
Still shown
So young
and yet so grown
Shine my child
Your bottle, your scepter Your highchair, your throne
But where is he?
His promise not forgotten
Still not where he’s supposed to be,
Walking by my side
Talking by my side
In the world toiling for us but we wouldn’t be alone
Because his love would bring him home
That’s a dream for another day
But I’m here my love
Making a way.
So here we are
At home
But not at home
Alone
And not alone
My precious gift
A star that guides me on.

Khalid